The only reason it hurts so badly is because I have been so blessed. I would not be so sad if I had not experienced those things and loved those people and had them love me back. It is worth it. As heartbroken as I am, it just shows the extent of how good I had it, and I couldn't be more grateful. I am in so much emotional anguish and pain over these partings because at one point, my happiness was boundless, and this was the price.
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On goodbyes and graduating; I could not be more surprised at my own emotions. I put tentative roots down in a city I thought I could never grow to love, but grow I did. I met the most extraordinary people and learned so much, in and outside of the classroom. And while I am thrilled to be home, and have looked forward to this for so long, I am so sad to leave my close friends. It's an awful tug-of-war on my heart, but I am doing my best to not dwell on it all (though I have failed at that so far).
In my sadness, I am grateful. Sending my love to all of my friends back in Lafayette. I apologize for the excessive melodrama that I've been spouting for the past week or so. And I apologize if this particular post is nonsensical. I've been quite emotional. But for good reason. At least, I hope the stress of graduating and growing up and all that is good reason.
I've been so scatterbrained, I truly cannot think of a good way to end this post. Just know that yes, I have been very emotional lately, and saying goodbye to a place I would sometimes slip up and call "home" every once in a while was extremely difficult, but that I wouldn't have it any other way.
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