Monday, December 31, 2012

Practice; Preach

Forgive your broken heart
And forgive your fallen star
And clean out the space you carry
In the hollow of your chest
Dust off the cobwebs of your mind
For a life lesson’s never far
And the learning never stops
And, my dear, that’s for the best
Make peace with all your worries
Let faith be greater than your fear
For every candle that you blow out
Strike a match to carry high
Don’t take things at face value
(They may be more or less than they appear)
And for every tear you weep
May you laugh until you cry
Celebrate the good and new
But honor that of yesterday
Stand up straight and drop your shoulders
To bear all burdens with easy grace
Cherish traditions and memories
But accept the change that comes your way
And, my dear, know that I love you—
I hope this helps you find your place

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Excerpt from Journal: December 7, 2012

The only reason it hurts so badly is because I have been so blessed.  I would not be so sad if I had not experienced those things and loved those people and had them love me back.  It is worth it.  As heartbroken as I am, it just shows the extent of how good I had it, and I couldn't be more grateful.  I am in so much emotional anguish and pain over these partings because at one point, my happiness was boundless, and this was the price.

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On goodbyes and graduating; I could not be more surprised at my own emotions.  I put tentative roots down in a city I thought I could never grow to love, but grow I did.  I met the most extraordinary people and learned so much, in and outside of the classroom.  And while I am thrilled to be home, and have looked forward to this for so long, I am so sad to leave my close friends.  It's an awful tug-of-war on my heart, but I am doing my best to not dwell on it all (though I have failed at that so far).

In my sadness, I am grateful.  Sending my love to all of my friends back in Lafayette.  I apologize for the excessive melodrama that I've been spouting for the past week or so.  And I apologize if this particular post is nonsensical.  I've been quite emotional.  But for good reason.  At least, I hope the stress of graduating and growing up and all that is good reason.

I've been so scatterbrained, I truly cannot think of a good way to end this post.  Just know that yes, I have been very emotional lately, and saying goodbye to a place I would sometimes slip up and call "home" every once in a while was extremely difficult, but that I wouldn't have it any other way.